All torn up

One thing continues to bother me! One thing has always been such a desire of mine! But it is one thing I cannot seem to do right now. My heart has always been, not just broken but drawn toward all the children that do not have families! Yeah, I know, you probably think about it for just a second...move on, and dont realy give it a second thought! You say to yourself "awe that is so sad that they dont have a family, or......." but for some reason I get completely torn up about it! Yesterday I was looking at the adoption list of kids just from around here and then onto kids around the US and if I could financially support them, if I had a big enough home, and if I had a vehicle to get them around in I think I would bring some more kids to a part of, not just our family but our church family! But for now I will just pray for these children, that God will bring people into their lives to touch them and that he will give them a family to call thier own!

"God in Control"

Yesterday was a horrible day! One of the most emotionally exhausting days I've had in a while! Although I didn't feel extremely stressed, I was emotionally drained! And today......I'M FEELING STRESSED! I know my source, and it is greater than any other! I know everything will be fine, but that doesn't keep the tears from falling, not out of grieving a loss, but because of "CHANGE."
Losing complete control in your life brings you to a place where you are completely opened up and reliant on "The One and Only," he is trustworthy, loves you, he is almighty, and will never leave you, "God."
Ultimately that is what he wants of us anyway! Nothing standing between you and him! Nothing that separates your love and affection to him!
So today although I feel as though things are so bad, deeply I know that we have been drawn in closer to "him" today. For that I am blessed beyond anything.

Well so here's the big news! Michael and I will be having our 4th child and hopefully our last(I believe God determines that.) This was a planned pregnancy although some people might think we are crazy that is what we decided would to do. We are very excited and praying for a boy although God knows what is best so ultimately we will be happy either way!

Tulips!

Well today everyone is stressed! Which means we all get to tip toe around the tulips. Actually we only tip toe around the tulips when Pastor Trudy is stressed and well..............she is stressed and aggravated. What's that saying "when momma ain't happy ain't nobody happy," in this case when Pastor Trudy ain't happy ain't nobody happy! LOL! Love you friend!

Attitudes

Yeah so I don't have a lot to say other than I get incredibly frustrated when people choose to walk away from what they know God has told them to do! Careful with the decisions that are made follow your Holy Spirit nothing else! Everything else can be deceitful!

Actually here's another one! Disrespect! Don't ever expect anyone to respect you unless you have respect yourself! Don't ever think yourself so great that everyone else is smaller than you and that giving you the right to walk upon other people! That boils down to not having respect for others and what they might be doing!

Good Moods!

You know I feel great today! I'm trying to figure out why! Well it's probably because I am working at the church with the coolest people in the whole world! Yeah that even made me laugh! I realy think its because I'm so Thankful for everyone in my life; I have the best friends any one could ever want, awesome husband, great family, 3 lil girls that keep me sooo busy all the time but then they smile and I just don't seem to care any more that I never sit down unless I'm at work. So Thank you to everyone for making my life wonderful, but the real Thanks goes to the one who gave me life!

The Firsts

Well, we made it through Christmas! It was hard! All the "firsts" after loosing someone are always hard but God has certainly blessed us in these hard times. My brother preached on Sun. and his sermon was "God's Grace is Enough for Me" and I have to agree. This tragedy in our life has brought back so many old feelings that I experienced when my mother was killed and you know I didn't understand anything when my mom passed but now as I look back on all the chaos
and confusion I was experiencing then and now having to walk thru it again I can see that God has been there carrying me thru all of it. Even though it may hurt like everything sometimes, I have to say God's Grace is Enough for Me!!!!!!!

Truth!

Well, all I have to say is we sometimes have to walk through difficult times and we don't understand why we have to go through them, but God says he will never put more on us than we can handle and although we might feel like dying God is there to comfort and guide us through. This last week we lost my husbands mom of 42 yrs of age. It has been an incredibly devastating time. A loss of a wife, mom, sister, aunt, and Nana. Although we are grateful for the time we were able to share with her we will miss her SO much. If it has taught me anything it's that we are not guaranteed tomorrow. I have lost my mother and now my mother in-law and it has taken loosing to very special people in my life for me to realize the full extent of this. I recommend that you live your life like it will be your last. Love those who are close to you like you will never have the chance to again, do the work God has called you to do like you will never have another opportunity, and be ready at any minute to meet the who gave you life (ALMIGHTY AWESOME GOD)!

New Baby!

I'm Sooooooo excited! My friend had her baby! Kelly lived with us for a short while when she met my husbands cousin Lark. I kept warning her "stay away from that boy, he is trouble." But he fell head over heels for her and well we all know how that goes. They got married like 3 or 4 months later, and then like a month after they were married they got pregnant. Well here we are 9 months later, with a beautiful baby girl. Lark was so incredible during the whole process. He wanted to do everything for Kelly, so attentive to her every need. She went in on Sunday at 3:30. She made progress real fast and then started to slow down, so they gave her some medicine to help her sleep and they waited to turn up her induction medicine until the morning. Everyone was there, in and out of the room checking on Kelly and anticipating the moment baby Alyssa would be here. Finally, Kelly is at the last moments. I am sitting in the waiting room while everyone is finishing their goodbyes and good lucks when Lark comes down and says "Katie come here." I went out into the hall and he says "I cant do this by myself, will you please go in with me?" I told him if he was for sure that's what he wanted to do then I would; he replied again, "I'm gonna need help I just don't think I can do it," but let me tell you HE DONE AWESOME! I wanted to cry my eyes out. I stood behind Lark the whole time and prayed through every push. Let me tell you they will make very good parents. Congratulation Lark and Kelly! Michael the Girls and I Love You Very Much!

sickness and sorrow

Well I'm glad yesterday is over! I was sooooo sick. Thank God for good friends. I was throwing up, Body aches, chills, tonsils are swollen, and my head felt like it could explode at any time. I haven't been that sick in 3 yrs. Anna was sick a couple of days ago, and now I think Hali is staring to get it.
Well besides all that Michael and I were going to go to Kentucky this weekend for my birthday. In Kentucky this weekend they have what they call "Ham Fest" its really fun, kinda like a fair but they have a parade an all kinds of neat things I haven't been since I was 15 yrs old I will be 26 this weekend. My mom's family lives there, an I was looking forward to seeing them, but Micheal and I have things we HAVE to get done on our house for winter, so well we had to make a decision that I personally didn't want to make but it had to be done. My cousin Faith Ann cried when I told her we weren't coming which in turn made me cry. It's nice to know my family cares soo deeply for me and I for them. Well Faith Ann if you read this I luv you and I will try an come sometime soon. For now to my Uncle's, Aunts,Cousin's, and Mama I love you all and hate I can't be there. Take Care. Love Katie Jo

Gods Will

Today I want to talk about Gods will and not ours. People that call themselves christians but refuse to walk in obedience to Gods word. Living the way the bible tells us to is Gods will. I know we are human and we make mistakes but the thing I'm talking about is when you deliberately choose to say "God I don't care what you say, I'm doing what I want to do and there is nothing you can do about it because I have my free will," well what I have to say about that is "good luck, because we are nothing without God. He gives you free will, but will also judge you for your choices on the day of judgement so I think we need to take in consideration our choices that don't line up with the word of God. This a hard thing to do because our human will often gets in the way of our walk with God. Let us check every aspect of our lives and ask ourselves does this line up with the word of God. Ok that's the end of my rant, just needed to get some thing off my chest.

Dead Cars!

Well I took my car back into the shop today. Pastor Trudy was headed to Miami so I asked her to follow me (my dad forgot he was supposed to.) So I headed on my way, made it to the stop sign where you turn right to go into Miami, and my car died, it would not start again so I called ahead to the mechanic and had them come and tow it the rest of the way. When Michael called I told him what happened and he was not very happy that I had it towed I responded to him "what did you want me to do? Push it!" if it were up to me I would have left it in the middle of the road until the tow truck got there, but there was a nice older man that pushed it out of the way for me. I was already irritated because I broke 2 nails while on my little endeavor. Maybe tomorrow will be better

Kids I love em!

Today I was sitting at my computer in the church and I could hear my daughter, Anna, playing in the daycare. All of a sudden I hear her yell "I love you Boyfriend," and then I hear the other little boy yell back "I love you!," so I stuck my head out the door just to make for sure that it was my daughter and sure enough it was. She was so embarrassed she kept saying "No mom, you didn't hear me," kids are so funny. The little boy she was talking to has been at the daycare since she was 8 months old and they are both 3 now. We have periodically caught them causing mischief together in the daycare. Next year they will start school together. His mother and I have decided to keep our cell phones off during the day to avoid the phone calls from the principle. My daughter acts just like me. Boy am I in for it!

Direction

Well I love it when God gives me direction. I get so excited because it usually means growth. Even when its dealing with me. Can I just tell you a little of what I've been seeing and hearing. God doesn't like it when we criticize others. As a matter of fact let me tell you what he says about criticizing in James 4:11. It says "Don't speak evil against each other, my dear brothers and sisters.[fn3] If you criticize each other and condemn each other, then you are criticizing and condemning God's law. But you are not a judge who can decide whether the law is right or wrong. Your job is to obey it. " Sometimes when we start to focus in on trying to witness to other people we tend to talk about their issues. So when we think about being negative and talking about other peoples problems in, what we think is an innocent way we nees to look and see what our motives really are. So when you find yourself in this type of situation let us reflect on what it says in James. Have a very Blessed Day!

Stressful

I really hate fundraisers! They require so much work! Why can't we just be lazy? Well I guess we could but we would never have any money to do anything. So have I mentioned that I hate fundraisers hehe! Well I guess God requires us to do our part to. Sometimes that stinks! Well got to get back to work on this wonderful fundraiser. C-ya!

God is Good!

OK! Yesterday God gave me a back bone. I was able to stand strong in a situation where normally I wud cave and enable people but God gave me words to speak that were non offensive an He kept the door open for me to still be able to minister to these people. Then later on in the day I faced another situation where someone needed some truth brought to the forefront and once again God gave me the boldness to speak his truth to this person and once again it was non offensive. Its amazing how things work when you rely totally on Gods Spirit to direct you in every situation in your life even the small ones. Challenge for today, keep your ears tuned in to that still small voice directing every little decision you make.

Work and More Work

Last night I had some girls, from the youth group and 2 of Annas friends, stay the night at my house. The girls from the youth group are going to help me do some work in my house. We are trying to finish up the remodeling that I started and Anna and her friends are going to swim and play outside. Well, we will see just how much work we get done today! Have a very blessed!

What to talk abou?

Really i don't have much to say today! Oh yeah today wuz Macy's first day to sit in an excersaucer she liked it a lot, she laughed and wore herself out real quick. Here's something else, have I said here lately how much I like our youth group? They are all sooooo cool and so much fun to be around. I try real hard to hold a serious conversation with them but then they do something totally off the wall and we are off on a long rabbit trail and I am usually right along with them and then I catch myself and we bring it back to the main topic and then, OOOPS, here we go again. It really is quite funny! Anyway they are all maturing so much in their walk with God and to be honest they still have their times but are probably the most respectful youth you could find and did I mention they have such wonderful servant hearts. I am so blessed to have such neat people in my life!

Well we took a trip with the uth to Branson this weekend it was a lot of fun. We went to Silver Dollar City. Michael rode all the roller coasters some of them he rode 4 times in a row and he has never had the nerve to get on anything that he doesn't have control over.

We (the girls) stayed up til 3 o'clock in the morning just having fun and visiting. We are going to take another trip to Branson in December and go to some shows and have some more fun. We all had great bonding time! I left my girls in great hands. I came home from Branson and my girls were still breathing (hehe), and my house was almost spotless. So I returned the favor with cash it meant so much to come home and my house be clean and I went without my children (an

d if you know me, you know that it wasn't easy for me to leave my

kids.) I appreciate Holly Rarick so much. S

o special THANKS.

Remodeling!

Well I have started remodeling my living room and kitchen. Nothing real big just painting, putting up trim, changing light fixtures, and replacing our sliding glass doors with French doors. Here's the kicker, I had decided to scrape the popcorn texture off the ceiling and paint it. Well I started painting and guess what?! The paint peeled right off! Got any suggestions? I talked to several people that have accomplished this task, and none of them have dealt with this issue. I'm not stressed out about it but I could certainly use some advice, and PT or PJ I don't want to hear your sarcasm he he.