All torn up

One thing continues to bother me! One thing has always been such a desire of mine! But it is one thing I cannot seem to do right now. My heart has always been, not just broken but drawn toward all the children that do not have families! Yeah, I know, you probably think about it for just a second...move on, and dont realy give it a second thought! You say to yourself "awe that is so sad that they dont have a family, or......." but for some reason I get completely torn up about it! Yesterday I was looking at the adoption list of kids just from around here and then onto kids around the US and if I could financially support them, if I had a big enough home, and if I had a vehicle to get them around in I think I would bring some more kids to a part of, not just our family but our church family! But for now I will just pray for these children, that God will bring people into their lives to touch them and that he will give them a family to call thier own!

"God in Control"

Yesterday was a horrible day! One of the most emotionally exhausting days I've had in a while! Although I didn't feel extremely stressed, I was emotionally drained! And today......I'M FEELING STRESSED! I know my source, and it is greater than any other! I know everything will be fine, but that doesn't keep the tears from falling, not out of grieving a loss, but because of "CHANGE."
Losing complete control in your life brings you to a place where you are completely opened up and reliant on "The One and Only," he is trustworthy, loves you, he is almighty, and will never leave you, "God."
Ultimately that is what he wants of us anyway! Nothing standing between you and him! Nothing that separates your love and affection to him!
So today although I feel as though things are so bad, deeply I know that we have been drawn in closer to "him" today. For that I am blessed beyond anything.